Yes, we all have struggles. Big and small. They all hurt no matter the size.
Even I still struggle. When I'm having a bad day, I think back at all the times when I was in a deep dark place. Life sometimes takes us places we don't want to go. We have to face the hard cold truth if we like it or not. My main problem has always been my attitude. I'm an opinionated, type A personality. I am outgoing and love to be around people. When I went through my struggle with my hair, I really closed off a big part of who I was. I buried the things that made me special. I would keep to myself. And with each passing day, I would look in the mirror and not recognize the person standing in front of it. God was teaching me and molding me through those years. He made me realize that without Him in my life, I was a huge mess.
Nothing ever satisfied me. In those moments, I surrendered. It didn't matter if I was at work, I would run to the bathroom and call out to Him. If I was driving home, He was right there. I didn't care if I was a sobbing mess or if I was wearing my most expensive silk dress, if I needed my Father, there was no turning back.
Even now there are times I forget or bury the miracles that have occurred in my life.
Today as I looked in the mirror, I was filled with emotion.
My hair. It's so long. Thank you Lord for this miracle! Thank you for the constant reminder in front of me of how real you truly are.
And I also want to Thank God today for healing me as a little girl. I had a crossed eye/lazy eye and had to wear glasses to see somewhat better. I had SO much faith that I would be healed, and I was! One day I will share that story.
The faith of a child is great! I look back at my younger self and I'm astonished at how much I knew the word of God was real and alive. I did not question it. As adults we over analyze everything. We really need to go back to that simple place of "seek and you shall find".
His love is beyond this world. Oh, I just am sometimes overwhelmed with it....
Be thankful for the good and the bad. It makes us who we are.
P.S. Here are some cute shots of Maria. She is 20 months and is amazing. She is full of life and loves reading. I read like 10 books a day to her, sometimes more. She loves playing with her dolls, and every time we go somewhere, she always has to bring one along for the ride. . Enjoy :)